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Monday, January 27, 2014
Wednesday, January 15, 2014
In the inbox
I have a couple of picture books that I am sending out and about unagented. Primarily for fun, but also to keep track of where they have been (I so need a secretary!), I have decided to log by rejection letters on my blog. I am eliminating the name of the sender, but otherwise they will not be fiddled with. Here is the latest;
All the best,
Dear Ms. Truax,
Thank you for submitting The Three Sisters to Sky Pony Press. After careful deliberation we have decided to pass on your manuscript as we feel it does not quite lend itself well to our list. Best of luck in finding another publishing house for your book.All the best,
Monday, January 13, 2014
A New Project
Today I began a new gig that will undoubtedly make 2014 different and memorable.
The current poet laureate of Portsmouth, New Hampshire, Kimberly Cloutier Green, has designed and launched her project to bring poetry to the larger community, which she has named Poetry's HeART.
I am serving as one of the facilitators of a Creation Circle where, working with a group of women who have signed up for the duration, we will be exploring and stretching the creative process of making poems and other types of art. Kimberly has envisioned that we will all (more than 100 participants) respond to the same initial prompt. It is a fragment of a poem she never finished but that has stayed with her.
Stranger, orphan, outlaw, beloved... How will we live our lives, so many hungers upon us?
Today, in the first of six monthly meetings, my group explored poems that touch in some way upon the idea of strangeness; being a stranger, seeing a stranger, being strange, a strange place, seeing something familiar with new eyes, feeling how we do and do not fit in.
You can hear one of the poems we read and discussed here;
Reverie in Open Air by Rita Dove : Poetry Magazine
Over the course of the next thirty days we will see what comes to us creatively in response to thinking about this subject. I invite you to join us from wherever you are. There are no rules, or right or wrong way to respond. Perhaps you will write a poem, a haiku, a short story. Perhaps you will sculpt, paint, draw, photograph, or compose something. Feel free to post a response here.
The current poet laureate of Portsmouth, New Hampshire, Kimberly Cloutier Green, has designed and launched her project to bring poetry to the larger community, which she has named Poetry's HeART.
I am serving as one of the facilitators of a Creation Circle where, working with a group of women who have signed up for the duration, we will be exploring and stretching the creative process of making poems and other types of art. Kimberly has envisioned that we will all (more than 100 participants) respond to the same initial prompt. It is a fragment of a poem she never finished but that has stayed with her.
Stranger, orphan, outlaw, beloved... How will we live our lives, so many hungers upon us?
Today, in the first of six monthly meetings, my group explored poems that touch in some way upon the idea of strangeness; being a stranger, seeing a stranger, being strange, a strange place, seeing something familiar with new eyes, feeling how we do and do not fit in.
You can hear one of the poems we read and discussed here;
Reverie in Open Air by Rita Dove : Poetry Magazine
Over the course of the next thirty days we will see what comes to us creatively in response to thinking about this subject. I invite you to join us from wherever you are. There are no rules, or right or wrong way to respond. Perhaps you will write a poem, a haiku, a short story. Perhaps you will sculpt, paint, draw, photograph, or compose something. Feel free to post a response here.
Friday, December 27, 2013
* I Did It*
One of my Facebook friends (I'm sorry I don't remember who) posted the following request for writers to document their productivity over the last year.
http://networkedblogs.com/S90gQ
I thought about it for several days. This kind of public accountability was the very reason I established my writing blog in the first place, and I think that without question 2013 has been the most productive of my ten year writing career. I'm not sure why then, I am hesitant to do this. Something about it makes me nervous ... but here it goes.
I reviewed all of my blog posts for the year. There were a few accomplishments I had completely forgotten, proving you do need to journal what you are up to in some way.
Here is what I can say I got done;
~ I wrote more than 75,000 words over the year. Unfortunately I am not well organized enough to say for certain what the number is. I do know I never came anywhere close to that number before. I also feel it is the most important of all that I will discuss next.
~ I birthed two books that I had been working on for years. Both are self-published and I see that as an important part of my platform.
~ Can't possibly say how many hours of research I have done this year or even how many books I read that were research related, but know that the number is very high. I also took a research trip that was an investment in my novel.
~ I attended my first professional writing retreat (AROHO in August). Most of the gifts that come from that are yet to be known. It was a wonderful, life changing experience.
~ I attended AWP for the first time. I did that because it was within driving distance of my home. It was interesting but not at all life changing. The biggest impression I got from it was how many of us there in this country trying to make a go of the same occupation. The size of that conference is overwhelming. The highlight of it for me was having lunch with other poets who will be published along with me in the forthcoming The Widow's Handbook.
~ I attended the annual NH Writer's Day conference as I do every year. I took a class there taught by Paul Harding that has stayed with me. I also pitched my novel to an agent who is interested in it. That felt like a huge achievement, and I'm still excited about it.
~ I can not count how many readings I attended, or even how many I gave. Not because the number is so high but because I am not very good about keeping track of things. Last month I was a featured reader at the monthly poetry hoots in my hometown that I have attended for a decade and even curated for a couple of years, and it was very special to me to have been invited to do so for the very first time.
~ This year I was also nominated to be the local poet laureate which of course is nice.
~ I'm terribly disappointed in myself to say I don't know how many submissions I made, probably about a dozen. I had several poems accepted for publication, but no prose.
~ I submitted one application for a significant fellowship that took a lot of work. (Still waiting to hear about that one.)
~ Can't seem to figure out how many blog posts I made during 2013, but in reviewing my blog for the year it doesn't seem as boring as I thought it was. I usually feel like a slacker regarding my blog.
~ I've started to find my way in the marketing of my work. I do not like this one aspect of being a writer at all. It is so unpleasant, but know that it is necessary. I try to devote a small part of each day to marketing the two books I have released. I have not been successful at this, especially in getting reviews. That seems to be much harder than I had anticipated. I've also failed several times in trying to get a good website up and running, though I made a few attempts.
~ I joined a local writing group that is proving to be helpful in my progress with my novel.
~ As I have for many years, I wrote twelve columns and several articles, for my local newspaper.
~ I curated a book discussion group for the museum where I work.
I may be forgetting a few things. It has been a busy year, and I am feeling pretty good about what I got done. What this inventory does seem most useful for is in showing me where I can do better. I need to step it up in the marketing department, and in submitting more short stories and my completed children's manuscripts. I need to do better saving and protecting my work. And I need to do a better job in keeping track of what I have accomplished. I need a secretary!
http://networkedblogs.com/S90gQ
I thought about it for several days. This kind of public accountability was the very reason I established my writing blog in the first place, and I think that without question 2013 has been the most productive of my ten year writing career. I'm not sure why then, I am hesitant to do this. Something about it makes me nervous ... but here it goes.
I reviewed all of my blog posts for the year. There were a few accomplishments I had completely forgotten, proving you do need to journal what you are up to in some way.
Here is what I can say I got done;
~ I wrote more than 75,000 words over the year. Unfortunately I am not well organized enough to say for certain what the number is. I do know I never came anywhere close to that number before. I also feel it is the most important of all that I will discuss next.
~ I birthed two books that I had been working on for years. Both are self-published and I see that as an important part of my platform.
~ Can't possibly say how many hours of research I have done this year or even how many books I read that were research related, but know that the number is very high. I also took a research trip that was an investment in my novel.
~ I attended my first professional writing retreat (AROHO in August). Most of the gifts that come from that are yet to be known. It was a wonderful, life changing experience.
~ I attended AWP for the first time. I did that because it was within driving distance of my home. It was interesting but not at all life changing. The biggest impression I got from it was how many of us there in this country trying to make a go of the same occupation. The size of that conference is overwhelming. The highlight of it for me was having lunch with other poets who will be published along with me in the forthcoming The Widow's Handbook.
~ I attended the annual NH Writer's Day conference as I do every year. I took a class there taught by Paul Harding that has stayed with me. I also pitched my novel to an agent who is interested in it. That felt like a huge achievement, and I'm still excited about it.
~ I can not count how many readings I attended, or even how many I gave. Not because the number is so high but because I am not very good about keeping track of things. Last month I was a featured reader at the monthly poetry hoots in my hometown that I have attended for a decade and even curated for a couple of years, and it was very special to me to have been invited to do so for the very first time.
~ This year I was also nominated to be the local poet laureate which of course is nice.
~ I'm terribly disappointed in myself to say I don't know how many submissions I made, probably about a dozen. I had several poems accepted for publication, but no prose.
~ I submitted one application for a significant fellowship that took a lot of work. (Still waiting to hear about that one.)
~ Can't seem to figure out how many blog posts I made during 2013, but in reviewing my blog for the year it doesn't seem as boring as I thought it was. I usually feel like a slacker regarding my blog.
~ I've started to find my way in the marketing of my work. I do not like this one aspect of being a writer at all. It is so unpleasant, but know that it is necessary. I try to devote a small part of each day to marketing the two books I have released. I have not been successful at this, especially in getting reviews. That seems to be much harder than I had anticipated. I've also failed several times in trying to get a good website up and running, though I made a few attempts.
~ I joined a local writing group that is proving to be helpful in my progress with my novel.
~ As I have for many years, I wrote twelve columns and several articles, for my local newspaper.
~ I curated a book discussion group for the museum where I work.
I may be forgetting a few things. It has been a busy year, and I am feeling pretty good about what I got done. What this inventory does seem most useful for is in showing me where I can do better. I need to step it up in the marketing department, and in submitting more short stories and my completed children's manuscripts. I need to do better saving and protecting my work. And I need to do a better job in keeping track of what I have accomplished. I need a secretary!
Thursday, December 19, 2013
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Wednesday, December 18, 2013
Saturday, December 14, 2013
Giveaway Today
In memory of those lost and those scarred by the Newtown school shooting one year ago today I am gifting a free copy of my eBook, Broken Buckets, a novel traversing the subject of gun violence in schools, to anyone who works with children or in a school setting. Just message me with your email address.
Saturday, December 7, 2013
Top Ten Books
I've been challenged twice in the last couple of days to play a Facebook game where you quickly list ten books that have stayed with you since you've read them. These are the first ten that came to my mind. I've been carrying them with me for years while most of the books I have read have been forgotten. I think most of these (and a few others) have had a powerful influence on my development as a writer. Join in the game. It's fun to think about what your first ten titles all have in common.
1. Their Eyes Were Watching God by Zora Neale Hurston
2. The Great Gatsby by F Scott Fitzgerald
3. The Diary of Ann Frank by Anne Frank
4. As I Lay Dying by William Faulkner
5. Wanda Hickey's Night of Golden Memories; And Other Disasters by Jean Shepard
6. Cowboys are My Weakness by Pam Houston
7. Peyton Place by Grace Metalious
8. The Grapes of Wrath by John Steinbeck
9. Pride and Prejudice by Jane Austen
10. The Sun Also Rises by Ernest Hemingway
The Facebook game has rules;
In your status line, list 10 books that have stayed with you in some way. Don't take more than a few minutes and don't think too hard. They don't have to be "right" or "great" books, just the ones that have touched you. Tag 10+ friends, including your tagger, so he or she will see your list.
1. Their Eyes Were Watching God by Zora Neale Hurston
2. The Great Gatsby by F Scott Fitzgerald
3. The Diary of Ann Frank by Anne Frank
4. As I Lay Dying by William Faulkner
5. Wanda Hickey's Night of Golden Memories; And Other Disasters by Jean Shepard
6. Cowboys are My Weakness by Pam Houston
7. Peyton Place by Grace Metalious
8. The Grapes of Wrath by John Steinbeck
9. Pride and Prejudice by Jane Austen
10. The Sun Also Rises by Ernest Hemingway
The Facebook game has rules;
In your status line, list 10 books that have stayed with you in some way. Don't take more than a few minutes and don't think too hard. They don't have to be "right" or "great" books, just the ones that have touched you. Tag 10+ friends, including your tagger, so he or she will see your list.
Wednesday, November 27, 2013
A Sort of Snarky Thanksgiving Post
I have been blogging for years now, and have made it a point not to use my blog for bitching. Who wants to read a rant? But every once in a great while, you've got to give in to the inner whiner, and let it rip. I'm terribly sorry that during this week of gratitude that I'm going to do just that. Maybe by the end of my post I'll see more clearly a way to feel thankful about this state of affairs.
So ~ in what I thought would be a very exciting week for me I have just released the first (self-published) chap book I have ever created. It isn't my work, but a re-release of Henry Longfellow's poem called Lady Wentworth which tells the tale of something that happened in my hometown of Portsmouth, New Hampshire long ago. It has been a labor of love really. Love for Longfellow and his poem and my hometown and the whimsical work of a local artist, and I have been working on it for at least eight years, determined to find a way to make it happen.
I had set the retail price for the little book at $15. That was as low as I could go and stand any hope to break even for just the production costs. By production costs I mean only the cost of printing the book. No pay for me or the illustrator, who worked very hard too, and created just for the book fifteen original drawings. Actually, now that I know what cut the bookstores are getting, it is clear I will probably never see the black.
As you surely know, this is not an unusual situation in the struggle to get books into the hands of readers. Still, it was suggested to me yesterday, that the price of $15. was too high for the product. Suggested by someone who knows books well. As much as I'd like to lower it, I simply can't.
I left that bookstore and walked over to a nearby coffee shop needing a post-yoga class smoothie badly. The coffee shop walls were adorned with the work of a visual artist as they always are, and as I usually do I took a few minutes to check out the featured artist's work.
While I liked the simple oil paintings very much, what I couldn't help but notice, in my freshly dejected mood, was that the artist was asking $180. for small paintings. What's the deal?
Sure, I realize each work of art is (usually) one-of-a-kind, but the argument still stands. Why as a society do we undervalue the creation of printed works to the degree that we do? We are willing to pay several dollars for a cup of coffee and a couple of hundred dollars for a small work of art by an emerging artist. We are willing to pay a couple of hundred dollars to see a concert or sporting event. The socks I wanted to buy my daughter for Christmas cost $34. per pair. Socks. I just don't understand why something that two artists, (three if you count Longfellow), worked hard on, that was costly to create, that will be of limited production, and is something that will entertain and endure, be so undervalued?
Well, ... still I am grateful that I am able to bring the poem back to Portsmouth, that was always my goal. And I am grateful that Bob Nilson (a fully emerged artist) agreed to work with me on the project. Below, as a teaser, I share one of his drawings from the book which makes the poem so entertaining for all ages. And below that a link to purchase the eBook version, which of course is much less expensive. Happy Thanksgiving.
So ~ in what I thought would be a very exciting week for me I have just released the first (self-published) chap book I have ever created. It isn't my work, but a re-release of Henry Longfellow's poem called Lady Wentworth which tells the tale of something that happened in my hometown of Portsmouth, New Hampshire long ago. It has been a labor of love really. Love for Longfellow and his poem and my hometown and the whimsical work of a local artist, and I have been working on it for at least eight years, determined to find a way to make it happen.
I had set the retail price for the little book at $15. That was as low as I could go and stand any hope to break even for just the production costs. By production costs I mean only the cost of printing the book. No pay for me or the illustrator, who worked very hard too, and created just for the book fifteen original drawings. Actually, now that I know what cut the bookstores are getting, it is clear I will probably never see the black.
As you surely know, this is not an unusual situation in the struggle to get books into the hands of readers. Still, it was suggested to me yesterday, that the price of $15. was too high for the product. Suggested by someone who knows books well. As much as I'd like to lower it, I simply can't.
I left that bookstore and walked over to a nearby coffee shop needing a post-yoga class smoothie badly. The coffee shop walls were adorned with the work of a visual artist as they always are, and as I usually do I took a few minutes to check out the featured artist's work.
While I liked the simple oil paintings very much, what I couldn't help but notice, in my freshly dejected mood, was that the artist was asking $180. for small paintings. What's the deal?
Sure, I realize each work of art is (usually) one-of-a-kind, but the argument still stands. Why as a society do we undervalue the creation of printed works to the degree that we do? We are willing to pay several dollars for a cup of coffee and a couple of hundred dollars for a small work of art by an emerging artist. We are willing to pay a couple of hundred dollars to see a concert or sporting event. The socks I wanted to buy my daughter for Christmas cost $34. per pair. Socks. I just don't understand why something that two artists, (three if you count Longfellow), worked hard on, that was costly to create, that will be of limited production, and is something that will entertain and endure, be so undervalued?
Well, ... still I am grateful that I am able to bring the poem back to Portsmouth, that was always my goal. And I am grateful that Bob Nilson (a fully emerged artist) agreed to work with me on the project. Below, as a teaser, I share one of his drawings from the book which makes the poem so entertaining for all ages. And below that a link to purchase the eBook version, which of course is much less expensive. Happy Thanksgiving.
Thursday, November 21, 2013
Upcoming Readings
I have two public readings scheduled in the next week.
Saturday afternoon November 23rd, starting at 3, I will be reading prose and poetry at the annual Open Studios of the Artists of Salmon Falls Mills at Rollinsford, New Hampshire. I will be up on the third floor of the Upper Mill. I'll be reading from both of my books, the published novella and the novel-in-progress, probably excerpts related to the holidays, as well as holiday related poetry, mine and others. I plan to share a couple of children's books too. I hope to see some of you there. The amazing assortment of artwork for sale will be worth the trip.
On Wednesday evening December 4th at 7 PM I will be a featuring with Tim Mason from Cambridge, MA at the Portsmouth Poet Laureate Hoot, at Portsmouth, New Hampshire. That's a first for me so a bit of a thrill, and I plan to do something of a retrospective of my decade as a hoot attendee that led to this reading. Also, a bit of a thrill for me, I will be making an announcement at the hoot... www.pplp.org
Right now I'm off to the local radio station for a quick interview about the novella. Tune into Portsmouth Community Radio WSCA 106.1 LP www.portsmouthcommunityradio.org
Saturday afternoon November 23rd, starting at 3, I will be reading prose and poetry at the annual Open Studios of the Artists of Salmon Falls Mills at Rollinsford, New Hampshire. I will be up on the third floor of the Upper Mill. I'll be reading from both of my books, the published novella and the novel-in-progress, probably excerpts related to the holidays, as well as holiday related poetry, mine and others. I plan to share a couple of children's books too. I hope to see some of you there. The amazing assortment of artwork for sale will be worth the trip.
On Wednesday evening December 4th at 7 PM I will be a featuring with Tim Mason from Cambridge, MA at the Portsmouth Poet Laureate Hoot, at Portsmouth, New Hampshire. That's a first for me so a bit of a thrill, and I plan to do something of a retrospective of my decade as a hoot attendee that led to this reading. Also, a bit of a thrill for me, I will be making an announcement at the hoot... www.pplp.org
Right now I'm off to the local radio station for a quick interview about the novella. Tune into Portsmouth Community Radio WSCA 106.1 LP www.portsmouthcommunityradio.org
Friday, November 15, 2013
Day of the imprisoned writer
Please check out this blog today
http://penusa.org/blogs/mark-program/participate-day-imprisoned-writer
http://penusa.org/blogs/mark-program/participate-day-imprisoned-writer
Monday, November 11, 2013
Guest Post by Kate Leigh
Tammi and I watched a movie called Lost Boundaries Saturday night. (Well, you have to take a break from writing now and then....)
Here is my movie review poem:
Passing
Here is my movie review poem:
Passing
The movie Lost Boundaries uses the word Passing
In a context unlike death, at the time of the film
If someone was Passing, they were white not black
In the eyes of their beholders. They raised families
Who looked white, the secret was treacherous and
Could topple their lives if discovered or spoken.
A great loyalty existed amongst those who knew
The Negros who were passing, it was as if they were clear
They would try to pass, too, if they could, if their
Brown skin was lighter, their hair straighter, their eyes
Colder, their posture more confident, their bulk of
Experiences less crushing, their futures less predetermined.
Such insecurity, such play-acting, such hollow prominence
Such groundless hope, such double lives, such questionable
Aspirations, to live amidst those who would scorn you,
To care for those who would trample you, to reserve such
Truth and intimacy from your blood children, to play
At the white man's unbeatable game, to defeat color itself.
Wrongs heaped on wrongs until no one can do right,
A rite of passage for the children of the Passed parents,
Who missed the window in their growth to bond with their
Black ancestors, who now must suddenly atone for sins
They cannot relate to or understand, their family unable
To help them, their bodies, genetics, appearance all awry.
Cry out now for a merciful blindness to overtake our
Fickle sight, to bless us with the inability to judge on
The basis of anything but obvious merit and selfless actions.
Let us earn our ideas about the human community, apply
The law once recommended by a wiser soul, one who
Believed we do unto others as we would have them do us.
(C) 2013 Katherine Leigh all rights reserved
Here is an image of the original movie poster c.1949

Thursday, November 7, 2013
Tuesday, November 5, 2013
Quick visit to NYC Public Library
Last month while in New York City I was thrilled to have some time, albeit not enough, to pop into the New York Public Library, and dragged my not-particularly-interested teenage companion through the exhibit now showing there on the history of children's literature. A lifelong passion of mine, and a subject I have taught at the college level, the exhibit was a thrill for me. One could spend a day perusing it; it is that thorough and detailed. There are many wonderful interactive displays as well as priceless ephemera to ponder, though unfortunately photos are prohibited, so I can not share with you any of the treasures I saw. You should go see for yourself. It is really worthwhile. Even though I got to spend very little time with the exhibit, it was enough to learn something new that has inspired my next picture book project (just as soon as I finish this novel)...
http://www.nypl.org/events/exhibitions/abc-it?hspace=216333
Another little tidbit I learned at the exhibit was that in 1938 Walt Disney made a video of one of my favorite picture book characters, Ferdinand the bull. In case you too have never seen it I offer it here. It is, like the exhibit, delightful.
http://youtu.be/HLXvOcERLAU
Wednesday, October 23, 2013
Women Called Nig
Last night I participated in two back-to-back book discussion groups that were a fascinating example of the tried-and-true teachers' assignment of comparing and contrasting two pieces of literature. It was interesting to me, even a little exhilarating, (I'm a geek) that this was all coincidental.
The first of the two was a book discussion group that I led. It took place at the living history museum where I work and was part of a series I curated on local black history. The book was Our Nig, or Sketches from the Life of a Free Black, In A Two-Story White House, North. Showing That Slavery's Shadows Fall Even There, by Harriet E. Wilson (published in 1859). This book is a fusion of genres, primarily the slave narrative and the sentimental novel popular at the time. It is particularly important to the history of American literature as it was the first novel ever published on this continent by an African American.
Sadly, it has been proven to be autobiographical as well. It is even more important that NH historians be familiar with the story as it is another first person account of the black experience in our state which has, I think since Harriet's life time, been largely ignored. The title brilliantly tells the story in just two syllables.
Because Harriet's story took place about 65 miles inland I had challenged my co-workers to see if they could identify any connections she may have had to Portsmouth, the harbor town where we interpret history for visitors.
I had identified three possibilities which we discussed;
1. Harriet's / Frado's mates went to sea and never returned. A man living in Milford, New Hampshire who went to sea may very well have done so from our neighborhood.
2. An obituary for Harriet's real biological mother, Mag Smith, has been identified, and it says she was formerly of Portsmouth, a pretty clear indication of Harriet having ties to this town.
3. There is considerable evidence that Harriet was an itinerant peddler of her hair care products as well as her book, and I propose that it is quite likely that she passed through here on her travels. One extant first edition of Our Nig was from a Hampton, NH home indicating she may have come that close.
Even if one did not have an interest in NH history Harriet's story is a compelling and riveting read.
After my group finished our discussion I joined a group at my local indie book store for a discussion of Passing by Nella Larson (published in 1929, seventy years after Our Nig) which just happened to be happening on the same night.The subject matter of this novel is obvious, and it is the story of two women's experiences, and of the color line at the time. It too is a riveting read, and a wonderful snapshot of American history.
Both of these books are sometimes referred to as stories of the "tragic mulatto" and sometimes dismissed as such. It is an important consideration to keep in mind, but it would be grossly unjust to dismiss these books along with white abolitionist literature that was contrived to proselytize to a white readership. Both of the writers were biracial women, and Larsen in particular, was first and foremost, an artist working with words. Although some other masterpieces of American literature have been categorized as tragic mulatto tales to include Their Eyes Were Watching God and To Kill A Mockingbird so the canon is indisputably well loaded.
One striking similarity I noted between the two novels was that both of the female protagonists were referred to as Nig. (Larsen could not have known about the other novel which was still lost then.) In the first case it was a diminutive word meant to reference one's property, as in "This is our house and our dog and our nig," without sentimentality of any kind. And an ingenious slam on a society that considered(s) itself above the institution of slavery.
In the second book it was a diminutive nickname given to a mixed-race woman by her husband in reference to her darkening skin. A joke shared between them, but meant to be insulting just the same.
Now I wonder if there will be another novel produced by a writer in this century that will reference a woman as nig, and while I hope that it will not be so, my hope is as superficial as the color of my skin.
I am excited that I'm next reading and discussing another work with a strong local connection, that has also been classified as a tragic mulatto tale, though like Our Nig, is based on a true story. It is Lost Boundaries by William L. White. A fellow reader let me borrow a copy of the book and the DVD, a movie made locally that I have been wanting to see for years, so I'm going to pop some corn now...
The first of the two was a book discussion group that I led. It took place at the living history museum where I work and was part of a series I curated on local black history. The book was Our Nig, or Sketches from the Life of a Free Black, In A Two-Story White House, North. Showing That Slavery's Shadows Fall Even There, by Harriet E. Wilson (published in 1859). This book is a fusion of genres, primarily the slave narrative and the sentimental novel popular at the time. It is particularly important to the history of American literature as it was the first novel ever published on this continent by an African American.
Sadly, it has been proven to be autobiographical as well. It is even more important that NH historians be familiar with the story as it is another first person account of the black experience in our state which has, I think since Harriet's life time, been largely ignored. The title brilliantly tells the story in just two syllables.
Because Harriet's story took place about 65 miles inland I had challenged my co-workers to see if they could identify any connections she may have had to Portsmouth, the harbor town where we interpret history for visitors.
I had identified three possibilities which we discussed;
1. Harriet's / Frado's mates went to sea and never returned. A man living in Milford, New Hampshire who went to sea may very well have done so from our neighborhood.
2. An obituary for Harriet's real biological mother, Mag Smith, has been identified, and it says she was formerly of Portsmouth, a pretty clear indication of Harriet having ties to this town.
3. There is considerable evidence that Harriet was an itinerant peddler of her hair care products as well as her book, and I propose that it is quite likely that she passed through here on her travels. One extant first edition of Our Nig was from a Hampton, NH home indicating she may have come that close.
Even if one did not have an interest in NH history Harriet's story is a compelling and riveting read.
After my group finished our discussion I joined a group at my local indie book store for a discussion of Passing by Nella Larson (published in 1929, seventy years after Our Nig) which just happened to be happening on the same night.The subject matter of this novel is obvious, and it is the story of two women's experiences, and of the color line at the time. It too is a riveting read, and a wonderful snapshot of American history.
Both of these books are sometimes referred to as stories of the "tragic mulatto" and sometimes dismissed as such. It is an important consideration to keep in mind, but it would be grossly unjust to dismiss these books along with white abolitionist literature that was contrived to proselytize to a white readership. Both of the writers were biracial women, and Larsen in particular, was first and foremost, an artist working with words. Although some other masterpieces of American literature have been categorized as tragic mulatto tales to include Their Eyes Were Watching God and To Kill A Mockingbird so the canon is indisputably well loaded.
One striking similarity I noted between the two novels was that both of the female protagonists were referred to as Nig. (Larsen could not have known about the other novel which was still lost then.) In the first case it was a diminutive word meant to reference one's property, as in "This is our house and our dog and our nig," without sentimentality of any kind. And an ingenious slam on a society that considered(s) itself above the institution of slavery.
In the second book it was a diminutive nickname given to a mixed-race woman by her husband in reference to her darkening skin. A joke shared between them, but meant to be insulting just the same.
Now I wonder if there will be another novel produced by a writer in this century that will reference a woman as nig, and while I hope that it will not be so, my hope is as superficial as the color of my skin.
I am excited that I'm next reading and discussing another work with a strong local connection, that has also been classified as a tragic mulatto tale, though like Our Nig, is based on a true story. It is Lost Boundaries by William L. White. A fellow reader let me borrow a copy of the book and the DVD, a movie made locally that I have been wanting to see for years, so I'm going to pop some corn now...
Friday, October 11, 2013
Poetry Contest
I was recently asked to serve as the contest coordinator for the Poetry Society of New Hampshire's twice yearly national poetry competitions. I am thrilled that Lauren K Alleyne, Poet-in-Residence and Assistant Professor of English at the University of Dubuque has accepted my offer to serve as judge of the November contest. For more info about Professor Alleyne see http://laurenkalleyne.com/bio.html.
Here are the guidelines for entering the contest open to all. I look forward to finding your poems in my mailbox on or before November 15th!
National Contest Coordinator
Tammi Truax
187 Meadow Rd
Portsmouth, NH 03801
Tammi Truax
187 Meadow Rd
Portsmouth, NH 03801
Please note limit is forty lines. Name and address must appear in the upper right hand corner of the copy on which they appear. NO identification is to appear anywhere on the second copy.
The Poetry Society of New Hampshire sponsors two National Contests open to all poets, members or not. Judges for the contests are not members of the Poetry Society of New Hampshire. Prizes are awarded to four places, 1st place, $100, 2nd place, $50, 3rd and 4th places $25 each. Winning poems will be published in our quarterly magazine, The Poets Touchstone, and winning poets will receive one copy of the issue in which their poems appear. Rights revert to the author after publication.
Guidelines
Entries that do not meet the guidelines will not be considered or returned. Poems must be postmarked by the deadline date.
- Subject and form are open.
- Length limited to 40 lines.
- One poem per page.
- Poems must be typed.
- Two copies of each poem, one with NO identification (no name, no address), the other with the name and address in the upper right corner.
- #10 SASE for winners list only. Poems will not be returned.
- Entry fee is $3 for the first poem, and $2 each for others. Entries limited to 5 poems per poet per contest.
- Poems must not be previously published, have won a prize, nor be currently entered in another contest.
- Poems must be postmarked by the deadline date. Deadlines are: May 15th and November 15th.
- Mail poems and check payable to the Poetry Society of New Hampshire (PSNH) to the coordinator at the address above.
Wednesday, September 25, 2013
Truth Be Told
I’d been
thinking about him so much in the last few months, had even developed a genuine
affection for him that surprised me, and truth be told, I didn’t really want to
travel alone. So, since I was en route to his house anyway, and there was an empty
seat beside me, I decided to conjure him up. I closed my eyes and asked him to
come sit with me a spell.
And then … there
he was, in all his magnificence, smooshed into a coach seat between me and a
young traveler who looked equally befuddled, but kept her reactions to herself,
and perhaps her 1472 non-believing Facebook friends. He looked down at his
knees, his long muscular legs rammed into the seat in front of him, and he
shifted his riding boots slightly. He looked at me. I was agog. He looked
remarkably well for the 214 years that had passed since he died an agonizing
death. Really – remarkable. His hair was still clean and well-powdered and
pulled back into a relatively tidy braid that I knew made my wild traveling
tresses look like I might be a zombie. His suit was well-tended right down to
the shiny brass buttons. Also quite shiny was the sword dangling from his hip,
that I was pretty sure the flight attendant would consider a sharp implement.
His mouth was shut tight. I tried to recover from my dorktitude. “Hi,” I said.
“High. Yes, by
God, I see we are,” he replied in a soft sort of sexy voice, his gorgeous blues
fixed on the window beside me where cumulus clouds wafted by. “Is this conveyance
how we ascend to heaven then?”
“Oh, well, no,
well yes and no,” I stammered like a fool. “We are flying through the sky, but
we are not going to heaven. I’m sorry. We’re going to Baltimore.”
“Baltimore!” he
bellowed. “Why the devil would that be? For what cause have I been summoned so? I demand a coherent
explanation for this extreme trickery.”
He was upset
and I felt bad. While trying to shush him, I said “I’m sorry General. You’re just
visiting me in the future. This is the year 2013. We fly around in these
airplanes rather routinely now.”
“Air – planes?”
he repeated staring hard at me. Then lifting and looking at his big hand,
added, “I am an apparition.”
“Yes sir. I just
really needed to meet you. You see, I’m writing a book, a work of fiction based
on historical facts, that is to say, I’m writing about you. I’m on my way to Mount
Vernon now to learn more about your life.”
His countenance
changed as if he’d been slapped. His jowls slackened, and his furrowed brow and
eyelids lowered. The great bulk of his shoulders caved inward a bit much to the
delight of the girl in the aisle seat. “Mount Vernon,” he repeated softly.
“Yes,” I said
gaily. “It was saved and preserved as a museum.”
“You’re taking me
there – home – to my farm?”
“Wasn’t planning
on it Sir. I think there is too much on the ground that would be distressing to
you.”
“Well, young
lady,” he said politely, covering for both my age and his impatience, “You
speak in vexing circles. I must suggest it would benefit us both if you stated your
objective forthrightly.”
I, of course,
resumed my signature stammering dorktitude. “I guess I just wanted to see
you, hear your voice, maybe get your blessing for my work.”
“Desist with
guessing. Stand tall with your convictions. If you are being called to write something
then do so. If you apply all of the honesty and integrity to your work that you
can muster you will be able to withstand any criticism that follows, I assure
you. To encourage literature and the study of history is a duty to which every
good citizen owes his country.”
“Thanks, I am being honest in my work. I cannot tell a
lie,” I teased.
He looked
unamused. I got serious.
“I’m writing
about you as a slave owner.”
“I see,” he said
seriously. “There is plenty of honesty in that. I was a slave owner from the tender age of eleven years until my death, though I provided for my people’s freedom
in my will. I knew it to be a withering institution and could foresee it’s
undoing in short time.”
Suddenly, I
saddened. I didn’t want him to know the truth. I didn’t want to tell him what
happened after, though I want to tell everyone else. Children, no matter how
old they are, never want to disappoint their fathers. Cannot bear to see the
look of failure in their father’s face, reflected back upon us in his eyes.
Averting his
gaze, I took his right hand in both of mine. Borrowing his wife’s term of
endearment for him, I said, “Yes, Old Man, thank you.”
With his
legendary intuitive intelligence, he said just before disintegrating, “Whatever
has yet to be done, charge on.”
“Yes sir,” I said
to his departing particles, “We will.”
Tuesday, September 10, 2013
Update
Well, in my own defense I can honestly say that my excuse for blog neglect is that I have been so crazy busy working! I have been writing up a storm as the historical novel I'm working on nears completion of its first draft. I was up in the middle of last night tweaking three scenes that I was laying in bed, wide-awake and thinking over. This muse is a whip-cracker!
And most exciting of all has been the release of my first completed novel as an eBook. Now at least a small fraction of each day needs to be devoted to a task I call book pimping. The least pleasant part of being a writer today, but it is unavoidable. I now have to find ways of getting the book reviewed which I really don't have any idea how to do.
It is an interesting, and humbling, experience, setting one of your babies off into the world to see how it does.
Here's a link. Reviews most welcome...
And most exciting of all has been the release of my first completed novel as an eBook. Now at least a small fraction of each day needs to be devoted to a task I call book pimping. The least pleasant part of being a writer today, but it is unavoidable. I now have to find ways of getting the book reviewed which I really don't have any idea how to do.
It is an interesting, and humbling, experience, setting one of your babies off into the world to see how it does.
Here's a link. Reviews most welcome...
Friday, August 23, 2013
Announcing book release!
After about three years of hard work, I am so happy to announce the release of my debut novel as an eBook now available through most eretailers. With a big shout-out of gratitude to all my friendly beta readers, especially WB Bernan, Sarah Flause, Kate Leigh, and Zachariah Johnson, and to my editor Erin Brenner, who also had to work hard. It is a rewarding feeling to set this one free, so that I can now fully focus on birthing my new baby. A big bouncy thing kicking it's Mama hard from the inside.
I would be most grateful for reviews of the first born, really I would! Or if you prefer a more private exchange please feel free to message your thoughts to me. Broken Buckets is a tale that an agent told me no traditional publisher would touch because the subject matter is something no one wants to think or talk about, which is exactly why I wrote it. Now I need to know what you think.
http://www.amazon.com/Broken-Buckets-ebook/dp/B00EBGEZDM/ref=sr_1_1?s=books&ie=UTF8&qid=1377257235&sr=1-1&keywords=broken+buckets
I would be most grateful for reviews of the first born, really I would! Or if you prefer a more private exchange please feel free to message your thoughts to me. Broken Buckets is a tale that an agent told me no traditional publisher would touch because the subject matter is something no one wants to think or talk about, which is exactly why I wrote it. Now I need to know what you think.
Wednesday, August 21, 2013
My Community
So I am settling back into my life as a writer working out of my home where I am alone most of the time. It is not a lifestyle that I dislike. In fact I fought hard to make it happen, and at this particular time of my life it suits me well. I have had to put a considerable amount of effort over the last few years in figuring out how to manage the lifestyle, and in protecting my writing time and space from encroachment. It really did take several years to figure it all out. The only thing that the lifestyle lacks is community. You can feel isolated, walled in.
Community is a beautiful word, but is, I believe an essential concept, an essential component to healthy human living. We do not thrive without it. We might survive, like a random wildflower bursting through a sidewalk crack, but we will not thrive. Not to our maximum potential. Last week I found my community. It is called AROHO, short for A Room of Her Own.
AROHO is non-profit foundation that seeks to support female writers and other artists in a variety of ways, most especially with financial and emotional support, and with a biennial professional writing retreat for women in the mountains of New Mexico (though oddly I found many connections with my home state of New Hampshire). In their own words the organizers say, "Since 2003, the AROHO Retreat has gathered women writers to exchange ideas and develop their craft in New Mexico’s magnificent high desert, nourishing a unique esprit de corps. Nestled in the red rocks of Ghost Ranch that inspired Georgia O’Keeffe, AROHO Retreat participants enjoy abundant time to write, reflect, and establish critical and often life-changing alliances with other professional women writers."
"The organic and evolving AROHO Retreat program is best defined as co-created by the women who participate, with utmost respect for the individual’s capacity to challenge herself and others, and to mold each day to her needs. "
While I was there I kept finding myself thinking, "These are my people." An interesting feeling in that the 100 writers chosen to attend AROHO represented the most diverse group of women I have ever been assembled with. Certainly that added to the beauty of the experience, and beauty is what happens when diverse minds mingle. But the inspiration goes beyond the participants present and how we impacted one another. In addition to connecting with the people present, you feel yourself connected to past participants of AROHO retreats whoever, where ever they are. You feel yourself connected with Georgia O'Keeffe whose vibrant art sprung from the dusty land you're breathing in and whose presence you can feel out among the hills. You feel yourself connected with Virginia Woolf whose words inspired the founders and whose presence you can feel especially at the quiet rivers edge. You even feel connected to the nameless, faceless spirits that have always been thought to inhabit the vast space of Ghost Ranch. There really seems to be, in this place where dinosaurs are excavated from ancient rock, an unearthing of organic inspiration that happens here in ways it does not elsewhere.
For me, beyond meeting and learning from many amazing women I would not otherwise have met, my retreat involved quite a bit of personal reflection and future planning that I wasn't expecting. Another way AROHO might differ from other retreats is that I found while there that I was not just concerned with my own work, but also in how I could serve other women writers while at the ranch and upon returning home. It is not a one week community, but one with legs. Legs to carry you forward across all kinds of terrain. Beautiful lady legs. Glamourous gams.
In my writing last week I was surprised to find that I was not focused on quantity, the word count I'd been yoked to at home, but on quality. A few key scenes in my novel-in-progress were polished til they glistened like the stars that make Ghost Ranch feel like it is situated at the very top of the world, where if you climbed a kiva ladder you could in fact touch the tippity-top of the heavens, the very apex of the universe ~ because it is within your reach.
That is what AROHO does for women.
That is what AROHO did for me.
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