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Friday, November 21, 2014

Speaking of Strangers

       Yesterday when I heard that the major television networks were not going to air the President's address to the public, on the public airwaves, as they have always done, I felt my proverbial camel's back snapping, breaking sharply but completely. The attacks on our rightfully elected (twice) chief, attacks both overt and covert, are so shameful that I barely recognize my own nation. And no doubt, President Obama will be blamed for that too. 

       He wanted to talk to us about immigration. A strangely volatile subject. Strange, because if you are living here and are not an immigrant, that is because you have quite literally been grandfathered in. We are a nation of strangers, yet our fear of "the stranger" is intense.

      The gravest stranger now, it seems to me, is the democracy that we are supposed to be. The founding fathers, I am sure, would be appalled at the way the "POTUS" has been maligned. The man who in their day they called "His Excellency" has my complete support to restore the great experiment, and he has my support based on philosophy and politics, as well as honor and tradition. 

     I share a multimedia poem I recently exhibited at a local art gallery, on the subject of immigration, and I share a quote from the President's speech last night. Words that are far more poetic than my own. 



Assimilation

I dreamed of coming
to America, Land of the Free.

Longed, needed to come,
yearning to breathe free.

Tired, poor, and wretched
I left the home I knew well,

where the land I was one with
flowed familiar, never to trip,

where the words I was one with
flowed familiar, never to trick.

I came to these teeming shores,
arms held out to the Mother of Exhiles.

Gathering with others like me, yet
strangers to me, we huddled in masses.


We too cried with silent lips
but we changed …



our clothes,
             our speech,
                        our names.

Tossed our differences into the
pot to melt into cultural compost,

until at long last
we became one with America

calling those that come
strange.


by Tammi J Truax 
reprint with permission only


      "... Scripture tells us that we shall not oppress a stranger, for we know the heart of a stranger –- we were strangers once, too.
My fellow Americans, we are and always will be a nation of immigrants. We were strangers once, too. And whether our forebears were strangers who crossed the Atlantic, or the Pacific, or the Rio Grande, we are here only because this country welcomed them in, and taught them that to be an American is about something more than what we look like, or what our last names are, or how we worship. What makes us Americans is our shared commitment to an ideal -– that all of us are created equal, and all of us have the chance to make of our lives what we will.
That’s the country our parents and grandparents and generations before them built for us. That’s the tradition we must uphold. That’s the legacy we must leave for those who are yet to come.
Thank you. God bless you. And God bless this country we love."






















Wednesday, November 19, 2014

NHWP

     Today I'd like to give a shout-out to one of the several writing organizations that I maintain membership in. Even though I have recently moved to a neighboring state I am unwilling to relinquish my membership in The New Hampshire Writers Project. The professional support I have found from this group, the personal connections that I have made at their events, and the lessons I have learned from their speakers and workshops are just too important to me to leave behind. If you live in New Hampshire, or even if you don't, check them out. I know you will find it worthwhile too.



Thursday, November 13, 2014

Vertical Answers

       In August of 2013 I was honored to be chosen as one of the women writers who were invited to gather at Ghost Ranch in the northern hills of New Mexico by the wonderful women of A Room of Her Own Foundation. We created many things while we were there; written and visual works of art, both solitary and collaborative, visions of ourselves and our projects, and perhaps more importantly, we created bonds of encouragement that continue long after we left the desert. And that has fed the fire in each of us that continues to burn from places all over the planet. It is a beautiful thing.

      Here is a link to one of the very first gifts that we created together.


www.aroomofherownfoundation.org/vertical-answers



Saturday, November 8, 2014

My Radbrief

Manifest Destiny
(For my AROHO sisters)

I need to go west …
To bathe in bold colors;
turquoise and topaz 
orange and amethyst.
To warm my marrow,
chilled and chafed
in darkened places.
To lie in the sun, feigning death,
lizardlike, surrendering to stillness,
surrounded by space to run and roll
should the mood strike me.
To let my hair go white.
To let my words go wild.
To let my voice echo in canyons,
ad infinitum.

#Radbrief entry from Tammi Truax (2013 Retreat: http://bit.ly/1u7z4OR
)

Submit your own "Radically Brief" lit here: http://bit.ly/1t0xKxu
 and receive a copy of The Los Angeles Review and a chance to win the last GO-Retreat Pass to the 2015 AROHO Retreat! (Drawing in April 2015 at AWP.)

aroomofherownfoundation.submittable.com

Thursday, October 30, 2014

NYC Reading

      It was a thrill to be invited to participate at a recent reading at Book Culture in Manhattan, a book shop known to be very poetry friendly.

                                      book-culture1.jpg (3264×2448)


     The reading was for The Widows' Handbook: Poetic Reflections on Grief and Survival, edited by Jacqueline Lapidus and Lise Menn (Kent State University Press, 2014). While I have met many of the other poets included in the anthology who are from New England, the opportunity to meet several others from the greater NYC area was a privilege. The book is doing fairly well, and has gone into a second printing. As you prepare for holiday shopping, consider buying a copy for someone on your gift list who is dealing with loss. It really is a special collection.

      More info can be found here: http://www.widowshandbookanthology.com/

      Here I am taking my turn at the podium, with the panel of contributing poets seated behind me.




       I knew that I would find some great books to assist in my novel research at Book Culure, and I was right. Here they are, and they made the long bus ride home enjoyable.






Sunday, October 26, 2014

     I wrote this article for The Portsmouth Herald's publication called Seacoast Seniors, which is not available online so I am posting it here for those who did not see the hard copy published earlier this week. It is reprinted with a few minor changes, and including a quote that didn't get into the magazine.


Liberty Trees Must Always Exist

By Tammi J Truax


     If you have been to Portsmouth, New Hampshire you've seen the massive tree that towers over the relatively massive Moffatt-Ladd Mansion. Her real name is Aesculus hippocastanum, commonly known as a horse-chestnut tree, and sometimes, a conker tree. There are several theories about why the horse-chestnut is so-named, too many to list here, and many of them sound plausible. While grown all over the temperate world for centuries the horse-chestnut seems to have been native to a small area in the Balkan forests of Eastern Europe. The motivation to carry the tree to other parts of the world was to spread beauty. The horse-chestnut is primarily an ornamental tree, and if you've seen ours even once, this you understand. It grows large, providing a gorgeous canopy, which in spring blooms in copious candle-like flowers. Other uses have been fully explored and are not significant. The wood isn't desirable for building, and the fruit (the conker which is not really a chestnut) is not edible (to some species it is toxic) unless processed, though that was done during the Great War in Europe. At times the conker has been used as an insect repellent in the home, and it is thought to have some medicinal properties that are still being studied today. The bark was used to make a yellow dye. Mostly though, the conker has been used for child’s play, the game of conkers having been very popular in the UK, did come to the US, and was taken so seriously that world championships were established.

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       The tree was most desired throughout time for the same reason that General Whipple brought it to Portsmouth; it looks lovely when mature, and lining an avenue. During the colonial years it seems to have been popular for stately men to plant stately trees outside their stately homes. Fancy trees were another way of displaying status. While often called a legend, and it is so amazing that it sounds like one, the story that museum docents tell at The Moffatt-Ladd House about the majestic horse-chestnut in the side yard is credible. It goes something like this;
      Whipple and his enslaved manservant, Prince, were in Philadelphia for the signing of the Declaration of Independence. While there they may have collected a handful of horse-chestnuts, the fruit of a tree new to Philadelphia. More likely William acquired seeds, or even saplings, from John Bartram’s Garden. Bartram was a Quaker and a botanist and the garden he started in 1728 is the oldest surviving botanical garden on this continent, where three significant historical trees still grow. By the time of the revolution it had become a thriving nursery business that the founding father/farmers would have sought out.
      Descendants recorded that Whipple planted the horse-chestnuts along the front of the house to commemorate the signing. It is more likely that one of the enslaved men living there did the dirty work. Quite possibly, Prince. Stolen as a boy from the gold coast of Africa, Prince was purchased by William Whipple upon his arrival at one of our eastern seaports. While still a teenager, Prince served beside his master in two battles in the American Revolution, and did ride with him to Philadelphia in 1776. In 1779 Prince would sign a petition of independence of his own, though it would not result in his freedom. There is no question when reading it that he had embraced the cause for which he had fought. Somewhere along the way the last surviving horse-chestnut was named The Liberty Tree. Arborists, who come to the Moffatt-Ladd House regularly to provide care and guidance, have verified her age, and she is on the National Register of Historic Trees.    

     photo by T Truax

      Until four years ago our Liberty Tree had a sister tree 3000 miles away in Amsterdam. She was known as the Anne Frank Tree and grew outside the secret annex. Anne mentions the horse-chestnut tree three times in her diary. By 1944 it was full grown, though considerably younger than ours having been planted around 1840. Having suffered fungal and insect damage, she was condemned to death. In an outcry familiar to many locals the townspeople flipped out, and a judge granted their tree a stay of execution. Of course, she couldn't really be saved and storm winds toppled her in 2010. Her offspring though, were sent off around the world. Eleven of her babies came to the US and, after a three year quarantine, have recently been planted. The closest to us was ceremoniously set into the Boston Common at the request of another teenage girl who thought the site most appropriate and somewhat coincidentally named it The Liberty Tree.
      The devoted Moffatt-Ladd gardeners ensure the continuance of our Liberty Tree too, and as many saplings as they can establish each year are sold to visitors as a fundraiser, but we seldom know where they end up. I propose that the city of Portsmouth plant one on public land where it can be watched over by all, perhaps near the Liberty Pole in the park. It would be a good way to prepare for her demise. It is nothing short of remarkable that she has survived this long. The day cannot be far off when, like the Anne Frank Tree, our old horse-chestnut will no longer grace the waterfront.
      Until then, come and see her. Appreciate her. Touch her if you’d like. You won’t regret it. I will always be grateful that I got to see both of these trees in the glory of their golden years, and that they let me feel a connection to Anne and Prince. I think of them … looking out at a tree that meant something to both of them, something that we can never know. ... Looking out at a tree heralding the passing of one season after another, of time being lost. .... Looking out from the confines of their attic prisons where they could only dream of the liberty we enjoy each day.

     photo by T Truax




"From my favorite spot on the floor I look up at the blue sky and the bare chestnut tree, on whose branches little raindrops shine, appearing like silver, and at the seagulls and other birds as they glide on the wind. As long as this exists, and it certainly always will, I know that then there will always be comfort for every sorrow, whatever the circumstances may be."  ~  Anne Frank, February 23, 1944


Thursday, October 23, 2014

       So a few days ago I was careening along the interstate on the back of a bus bound for New York City. Looking out the window, I realized that story and poem prompts were passing me by one after another. I wondered what stories might lurk in the snippets I saw. At the rate of 70 MPH there wasn't much I could do with them, but scribble them down to share with you later.

       Here are a few. See what you can do with them. I would love to publish a few of your responses here. ...

~ A dreary and dilapidated three story tenement with a shiny yellow kayak standing on the saggy top back porch.
~ A commercial warehouse with an enormous pile of bicycle wheels on the roof.
~ A small white porcelain vanity sink tossed at the foot of a stand of maple trees just at the peak of their autumnal perfection.
~ A skinny little man sporting a ZZ Top beard, deftly maneuvering an eighteen wheeler through traffic. The lettering on the truck indicates that it is filled with craft beer. Or is it empty?

Wednesday, September 24, 2014

Humbly

      Please accept my humble apologies for blog-neglect. I have been working hard all summer to settle into my little writer's cottage, all the while trying to prepare myself for leaving my youngest baby in New York City (of all places!). It has been a tumultuous time for me, and now that the leaves and temps are transitioning too, I'm beginning to settle into a new routine. Sort of ...
      Still, I intend to become more neglectful than ever this winter as I hole up and finish the first draft of the novel I've been hammering away at for about eighteen months. I am really nearing completion and what it needs now more than anything else is much uninterrupted attention. First though I have to get through the busy museum teaching season, but that will fly by. Then comes Thanksgiving and the kid will be coming home!
     Obviously I have a lot to learn about holing up in my cottage...


      There is something that I have been wanting to share; I recently had the pleasure of  introducing three poets who had come to my town to give a reading at my local indie book store, and it really was a pleasure.
      One was New Hampshire's reigning poet laureate, Alice B. Fogel, and another was a young lady making her way through the poetry world with considerable success, Leia Penina Wilson .  They were both well worth hearing.
     But the poet who really caught my ear was Kate Gale. When she read one of her poems in two voices, I could scarcely breathe. She is skilled at reading her own work to great effect, which is something few poets seem to take the time or effort to perfect. So many of us are hobbled by the habit of being humble. Hobbling ourselves, how stupid is that? Our voices should be as strong in the air as we want them to be on the page. IMHO.

      http://www.thefreedictionary.com/humble

Thursday, August 28, 2014

Gigs

       I will be teaching a few classes at Kittery Adult Ed. this fall. See the link below for more info. I'm particularly excited about the workshop I am designing about Prince Whipple. Prince was an enslaved black man who lived most of his life in Portsmouth, and who served in the American Revolution with his master William Whipple, a signer of the Declaration of Independence. I will be giving this talk (with visuals) first at The Moffatt-Ladd House (where Prince worked) but the date for that has not been set yet.

     http://kittery.maineadulted.org/

     On Saturday evening I will be performing with other poets and artists at the:


LALAPALALA MUSIC & ARTS FESTIVAL
AUGUST 30th, 2014
DAY & NIGHT SHOW (1pm-1am)

Featuring:
LOCAL MUSIC, LOCAL ART, LOCAL POETS, FIREDANCING, HOOPDANCE, LIQUID LIGHT SHOW, ART RAFFLE,
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DAY SHOW: 1pm-7pm

LOCAL MUSIC:

Thomas Anello (Acoustic, Intricate Fingerpicking)

Clara Berry (Art Pop)

Animals and Shapes (Adventurous Rock)

Cornelius Peppercorn and the Matadors (Rock/Funk/Jazz)

Yelloyuth - band (indie punk/rock/folk/pop)

The Floods (Blues/Psych Rock)

The Tercet (prog/funk)


LOCAL ART, CRAFT & PERFORMANCE:

-Made With Love by JAH (zafu's, sewing, and clothing)

- Mandi Moonjava (Hoopdance, Handmade hoops, Hoopdance class)

Angie D'Anjou, Psychic Medium (Spiritual consultant)

Boxes Unlimited (Birdhouses/Woodwork)

-Firelight Pottery ( Jewelery/ watches)

Lisa's Wire Creations

- Molly Foye (Provocative Interactive Pieces)

- Evolution Decorum (Recycled/Functional Art)

Althaea Wellness Education (Natural Herbal Products)

Mudwerx

LOCAL POETS/WRITERS:

- Mario St. Remy

- Lucas Perry

- Tommie Ann Bower

----------------------------------------------------------------------
NIGHT SHOW: 7pm-1am

LOCAL MUSIC:

- GYMSHORTS (Punk/Garage/Surf)

jonee earthquake band (Surf/Punk/Rockabilly)

People Like You (Psych Folk/Indie/Pop)

-The Raunchy Randos (Psych Rock/Blues/World Music/)


LOCAL ART, CRAFT & PERFORMANCE:

Marisa Kang : Artist (Painting/Pointillism)

-Molly Foye (Provocative Interactive Pieces)

-Lisa's Wire Creations (Wire Wrapping Crystals)

- Angie D'Anjou, Psychic Medium

- Mandi Moonjava (Hoopdance)

Jessefisherglassworks (Blown Glass)

Family Fuego (Firedance)

- Ben Tillinghast (Forgery)

POETRY/WRITTEN WORD READING:

- Tammi J Truax

- Kate Leigh
http://www.bookthatpoet.com/poets/leighkat.html

- Rene M. Thibault
--------------------------------------------------------------------
August 30th, 2014
1pm-1am

All ages till 9pm! Children under 12 get in free.

-----------$5 cover-------------

At The Stone Church, Newmarket, NH




LALAPALALA MUSIC & ARTS FESTIVAL
AUGUST 30th, 2014
DAY & NIGHT SHOW (1pm-1am)

Featuring:
LOCAL MUSIC, LOCAL ART, LOCAL POETS, FIREDANCING, HOOPDANCE, LIQUID LIGHT SHOW, ART RAFFLE,
-----------------------------------------------------------------------
DAY SHOW: 1pm-7pm

LOCAL MUSIC:

Thomas Anello (Acoustic, Intricate Fingerpicking)

Clara Berry (Art Pop)

Animals and Shapes (Adventurous Rock)

Cornelius Peppercorn and the Matadors (Rock/Funk/Jazz)

Yelloyuth - band (indie punk/rock/folk/pop)

The Floods (Blues/Psych Rock)

The Tercet (prog/funk)


LOCAL ART, CRAFT & PERFORMANCE:

-Made With Love by JAH (zafu's, sewing, and clothing)

- Mandi Moonjava (Hoopdance, Handmade hoops, Hoopdance class)

Angie D'Anjou, Psychic Medium (Spiritual consultant)

Boxes Unlimited (Birdhouses/Woodwork)

-Firelight Pottery ( Jewelery/ watches)

Lisa's Wire Creations

- Molly Foye (Provocative Interactive Pieces)

- Evolution Decorum (Recycled/Functional Art)

Althaea Wellness Education (Natural Herbal Products)

Mudwerx

LOCAL POETS/WRITERS:

- Mario St. Remy

- Lucas Perry

- Tommie Ann Bower

----------------------------------------------------------------------
NIGHT SHOW: 7pm-1am

LOCAL MUSIC:

- GYMSHORTS (Punk/Garage/Surf)

jonee earthquake band (Surf/Punk/Rockabilly)

People Like You (Psych Folk/Indie/Pop)

-The Raunchy Randos (Psych Rock/Blues/World Music/)


LOCAL ART, CRAFT & PERFORMANCE:

Marisa Kang : Artist (Painting/Pointillism)

-Molly Foye (Provocative Interactive Pieces)

-Lisa's Wire Creations (Wire Wrapping Crystals)

- Angie D'Anjou, Psychic Medium

- Mandi Moonjava (Hoopdance)

Jessefisherglassworks (Blown Glass)

Family Fuego (Firedance)

- Ben Tillinghast (Forgery)

POETRY/WRITTEN WORD READING:

- Tammi J Truax

- Kate Leigh
http://www.bookthatpoet.com/poets/leighkat.html

- Rene M. Thibault
--------------------------------------------------------------------
August 30th, 2014
1pm-1am

All ages till 9pm! Children under 12 get in free.

-----------$5 cover-------------

At The Stone Church, Newmarket, NH
   
      http://kittery.maineadulted.org/


       This Saturday evening I will be on the line up of poets and other artists performing at the:




LALAPALALA MUSIC & ARTS FESTIVAL
AUGUST 30th, 2014
DAY & NIGHT SHOW (1pm-1am)

Featuring:
LOCAL MUSIC, LOCAL ART, LOCAL POETS, FIREDANCING, HOOPDANCE, LIQUID LIGHT SHOW, ART RAFFLE,
-----------------------------------------------------------------------
DAY SHOW: 1pm-7pm

LOCAL MUSIC:

Thomas Anello (Acoustic, Intricate Fingerpicking)

Clara Berry (Art Pop)

Animals and Shapes (Adventurous Rock)

Cornelius Peppercorn and the Matadors (Rock/Funk/Jazz)

Yelloyuth - band (indie punk/rock/folk/pop)

The Floods (Blues/Psych Rock)

The Tercet (prog/funk)


LOCAL ART, CRAFT & PERFORMANCE:

-Made With Love by JAH (zafu's, sewing, and clothing)

- Mandi Moonjava (Hoopdance, Handmade hoops, Hoopdance class)

Angie D'Anjou, Psychic Medium (Spiritual consultant)

Boxes Unlimited (Birdhouses/Woodwork)

-Firelight Pottery ( Jewelery/ watches)

Lisa's Wire Creations

- Molly Foye (Provocative Interactive Pieces)

- Evolution Decorum (Recycled/Functional Art)

Althaea Wellness Education (Natural Herbal Products)

Mudwerx

LOCAL POETS/WRITERS:

- Mario St. Remy

- Lucas Perry

- Tommie Ann Bower

----------------------------------------------------------------------
NIGHT SHOW: 7pm-1am

LOCAL MUSIC:

- GYMSHORTS (Punk/Garage/Surf)

jonee earthquake band (Surf/Punk/Rockabilly)

People Like You (Psych Folk/Indie/Pop)

-The Raunchy Randos (Psych Rock/Blues/World Music/)


LOCAL ART, CRAFT & PERFORMANCE:

Marisa Kang : Artist (Painting/Pointillism)

-Molly Foye (Provocative Interactive Pieces)

-Lisa's Wire Creations (Wire Wrapping Crystals)

- Angie D'Anjou, Psychic Medium

- Mandi Moonjava (Hoopdance)

Jessefisherglassworks (Blown Glass)

Family Fuego (Firedance)

- Ben Tillinghast (Forgery)

POETRY/WRITTEN WORD READING:

- Tammi J Truax

- Kate Leigh
http://www.bookthatpoet.com/poets/leighkat.html

- Rene M. Thibault
--------------------------------------------------------------------
August 30th, 2014
1pm-1am

All ages till 9pm! Children under 12 get in free.

-----------$5 cover-------------

At The Stone Church, Newmarket, NH

     Hope to see you at one of these events!
       

Sunday, August 10, 2014

Dog Days Update

     I certainly have been dragging my feet about this post, and I'm not even sure why.
     I guess I didn't want to whine, much like I did in my last post, about how disappointing the low turnout at the book launch and celebration for the little Longfellow book I worked on for so many years was to me. Much like a mom, I wonder why everyone isn't as enamored with my baby as I am. Of course, I am incredibly thankful to the small crowd that did show up, and to Don Young for his fun portrayal of Henry W. Longfellow. Here he is giving he reading;




       Last night, my daughter and I watched The Book Thief, and I thought it was an absolutely stunning film; a beautifully rendered story about a beautiful story teller. I highly recommend it and feel bad about never having read the book. For most of the last eighteen months I have read little that wasn't research related, though right now I am working through  A Room of One's Own and Woman Warrior while I finish up my AROHO retreat application, itself a lengthy process of hard work. I plan to finish tomorrow!

The-Book-Thief-Review-e1361765380759.jpg (440×220)

Tonight, I am off to my writing critique group and will have an important chunk of my novel work-shopped by a group whose feedback has become very important to me. I'll ask about what is ugly and glorious in my words and they will tell me. Maybe I'll report back tomorrow...

Tuesday, July 15, 2014

The Frost Place


   

  I honestly didn't realize what an honor it was going to be to read my poetry at The Frost Place. Of course, I was thrilled to be asked, and jumped at the chance immediately, but I really didn't realize how it would feel to be there, to stand at the podium in the poetry barn, to walk the paths that Frost walked, to see his view of Mount Lafayette from his front porch swatting at the descendants of the same summer bugs that darted about him, to enter his house, see the Morris chair he sat in, and discover he used a homemade lap desk, so seriously Yankee. I imagine everyone would be charmed by this, but a poet and history enthusiast country girl from New Hampshire, is charmed to the core by this kind of stuff.


       Most of all, I didn't know how thoughts of my own father would be so overwhelming throughout my visit. Definitely did not see that coming at all.
     I underestimated the distance from my new home to the house in Franconia, which of course is an uphill climb all the way into the White Mountains. So I didn't have as much time to meander about the museum as I would have liked, but still got to have a pretty good look around the house and yard, where just a few other poets were also quietly poking about. Though New Hampshire is my home state I had never been to the property before, and was a bit surprised at how remote it was. Up a dirt road, still a large and lovely wooded lot all these years later.
     You come upon the house, after parking, by way of a pretty back yard path that takes you to what I call the poetry barn, a small old outbuilding now used for poetry readings and book sales. The staff unlocked the house for us and let us go inside without a docent, (tours are provided during normal operating hours). This really was a country offering none of the amenities that summer travelers look for nowadays, and the house remains as rustic as it was then. I was told that Frost bought it for the view of Mt Lafayette which is understandable, and that he and his wife were looking for something that would help them with allergies when they came upon it. I’m guessing that that worked fairly well for them since they lived there year round for five years and summered there for twenty. Countless poems were inspired by the setting, and penned in this place.



      Yet, while I felt Frost’s presence, I kept thinking about my father. And not his presence, but his absence. Frost and my father somehow suddenly seemed like similar characters in my mind. Perhaps because my father introduced me to Frost’s poetry as a child. Perhaps because my father is an old New Hampshire Yankee too, and can, quite fairly, be called a curmudgeon. Perhaps the graying photos of an old guy in sixties style fashions reminded me of my Dad; a thoughtful looking man immersed in reading material, tuning out the rest of the world. Maybe it was the Life Magazine or other artifacts of the twentieth century laying about. Or maybe it really was just his absence.


      It did feel awkward to be there alone. A poet among strangers. As if I came from a distant land, and was not a native at all. As if I were an orphan. Still, I knew it was just as well. The strangers greeted my work warmly, and several sought me out after to say so. I knew, without question, that all of the poems I had chosen to read in that setting would have offended my father. He not only has shown an unwillingness to consider me a poet, he finds my opinions on most matters, at the very least, irksome. Still it was a little sad. It is quite likely that I will never again in my life have the honor of giving a reading of my work in a more important place, and that no one who knows me was there to bear witness to it did seem to diminish it.


      My father will turn 80 in a few weeks. I bought him a book of Frost’s work before I left. He probably won’t ask me where I got it. I probably won’t tell him. On the way back down the mountain I ate dinner in the car so that I could get back to my own daughter as quickly as possible. I had an apple, some candy, and a bottle of water, an old fashioned New Hampshire Yankee dinner. Before I bit into the apple though, I had to polish it to a gleaming shine using my shirt, just the way my father had taught me to do, more than forty years ago.